Thursday, 12 April 2012

Spring and New Growth

Now, this is interesting and so very opportune! This image was taken from my facebook page, so sadly, I do not know its' author. I took it from a collection that I have, but I am unable to see the pic I am choosing-just the number, code...So, here is the choice of the day and perhaps of the beginning of this pregnant season. I look at all the plants and trees bursting forth and then I try to imagine the landscapes of the summer-just for fun, not neurosis! What will this spring-summer chapter bring to each one of us and then, to the world? Everything is truly changing, swirling, morphing and the only thing that can still us in all this is choice; choice to be still, silent, unavailable. Choice to disappear on a wooded path that noone else knows about...To be delicious! I have taken to a new pattern of behaviour which has been largely caused by the plethora of gadgets and instruments of communication...Sometimes, when I rest in the afternoon, I will wake up around 4 and listen to my immediate environment. When it is absolutely quiet, I will often decide that I wish to keep it that way. I want no " input" of any sort-radio, television, phone, computer, then onto food and drink. Just to give my brave stomach some sustenance for the prolonged night's sustenance, I will eat a banana and have a glass of water...Even my body does not want to deal with clanging of dinner's preparations...Quiet, quiet quiet..." Perchance to dream"! Then, it's on to a mini vision quest where worlds and stories can unfold. I want to be with my imagination, my unconscious, my body and with the natural world outside my window.

So, in conclusion, I will encourage anyone here to look at this giant foot print going in a direction all its own in a universe that is so much bigger and still. You will enjoy it. Your body will have a chance to digest life's events and rest. Dreams, so often put on hold, will race by you or with you. And you, you will have had a life entirely your own and perhaps this is the very first step of creation....

Friday, 24 February 2012

So Much Silence

Happy New Year, warm Imbolc, sweet Valentine's Day and thoughtful Lent!

I am so so sorry for this incredible silence, but, given the rapidity and magnitude of change and events in my life's journey, I know that you will understand. And something tells me that you will be very sympathetic! I do pray for everyone's wellbeing here and please feel free to share anything here...For the past week or so, I have been reeling from the dubious news that my feisty brain tumour is showing signs of re-growth...Instead of a box of chocolates on Valentine's, I got a cautious call from my neurosurgeon's nurse announcing that Spring had sprung early in my head...Well, I always knew that my brain was safe and securely planted in fertile soil...How will I address this in coming weeks, I am not certain...Hopefully, with aplomb and some humour! However, the waves of emotion have been so big and frequent even before this news....I am riding the surfboard of revelations, sentiments, memories on the swells and undertows of deep reflexion and day to day events...How about all of you? Let me hear from you before I go on and on....Because, as always, I have much to say and share, but I do not wish to senselessly harp on and on as if I were in an echo chamber...In the meantime, I send you all my love and good thoughts as my little tumour waves its' sprout "Hello".

The image I have chosen is very recent...And it reminds me of when I first went through the "Brain Trip" 4 years ago. When I was consulting my doctor and he showed me an image of my brain from the MRI, I exclaimed, " Why, it looks exactly like an opened walnut!" The resemblance was exact...This collage is entitled " From Little Walnuts".